Danielle blew air through her mouth and sighed. "Here we go," she said while looking at the page she opened.
"1999 March 01"
"Every time I sleep I hear the voice clearly, taunting me and humiliating me, it tells me how worthless I am, and a mistake in this world.”
“Then everywhere I go, I hear the same voice, it speaks to me every time, never said anything good and sometimes, not only a voice.”
"Holding her head, she said I hear it, it talks to me as I'm writing this, my hands are shaking, I can't write for much longer the pills don't help, they don’t, whoever finds this, I'm sorry I don't mean to overdose, but I just have to, I took all of the pills, how many are they, 12 or more, I don't know, I'm shaking now but the voice is still laughing at me. I'm gone! Don't cry for me."
MARTHA CURRY. Died of Schizophrenia.
"1993, March 02"
I used to be a very vibrant person, full of life and always burying my head in work, working hard that I barely have enough sleep.
The adult was supposed to have at least 7 to 8 hours of sleep to make the body and mind balanced, but no, mine was in shambles, started from sleep insomnia, I started using drugs but it worked, and became better, even I quit my job for a better one.
Soon afterwards it came back, I didn't know why, I couldn’t remember how and why, but all I knew was that whenever I slept, I woke up about countless times continuously, snoring whilst I slept, my mind was always occupied.
I couldn’t explain it but reported myself to the hospital where I found out to be suffering from sleep apnea.
It worried my wife and my kids. I knew not what to write anymore but I wrote this in case they found my body lying dead on the ground wherever.
“I'm tired of the drugs, tired of all the check ups and troubled mind. I know what I'm about to do is wrong but, it's the only way I can free myself. I want to be free like a bird.” I love you Leah, I love our children too, she said.
Please take care of them till we meet again!
ELIAS ASPEN SUFFERED FROM SLEEP APNEA BEFORE HE COMMITED SUICIDE.