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Christian Pov:-
I told Sophie everything about her. But, I couldn't bring myself to tell her about my past, how I took a life for her, how I lost myself in the dark side. That my money wasn't even moral and Mother took her life because of me. But now my money is righteous but back then there was nothing but gloom. I just told her that I involved myself in illegal life, no in-depth details about it.. But I didn't tell her that I have taken lives. I know she deserves to know but I couldn’t bring myself to tell her. I want to but I just don't have enough strength in me.
I told her everything about her and slowly lifted my gaze to look at her. She was listening very carefully, devoid of every emotion. The look of hurt of not being aware of her own self flashed in her eyes. The feeling of betrayal and a wrath that I have never seen before, she was in a state of a silent chaos and fury. She was ready to wreak havoc but something held her back, something was refraining herself. She was holding her emotions. She gulped hard as she was lost in obscure thoughts of despair. Being ignorant of the fact of her truth caused her to crumble but all her emotions were kept at bay as she gave me a void look.
I swallowed hard as she narrowed her eyes at me, I know whatever she's gonna say would either be a lie or something she doesn't want to say but it's reality. She kept looking at me as I felt the weight of the silence to crush me from anxiety. My heartbeat was feeble just in dread that she didn't want to leave me. That she wants to live her life normally like before, away from me. These life taking thoughts filled my mind as I am on the verge of a breakdown. This absence of sound is the loudest cry for me. It's stirring with my mind. We both looked at each other for a long time. To read that gaze is not in my capabilities.. It's an unfathomable look. It's filled with mixed emotions; heartbreak, betrayal, hatred, grief. Undesirable thoughts came to my mind and no matter how hard I try, I can't shake them off. These unbearable feelings made my chest tightened. The intensity of this silence is pushing me into a state of turmoil. It made me feel like an abyss is awaiting me. Before I could lose my sense, Sophie finally spoke up,
"That's what I used to feel whenever a silence fell upon us." Her tone was casual. I raised my eyebrow at her as she sighed and began to say.
"When we got married, that's what I felt in silence; crushed, helpless, miserable." She gave me a seething look as all those sad emotion came out and she began to say in a low tone,
"That bitch told you that I won't accept you and you agreed. For once Christian, if you came to me saying that you are Aunt Eleanor's son, the knight she used to talk about, I would have accepted you with all my heart. If you talked to me, we would have sorted a way out. We could live a normal life if you haven’t lived in delusions.
It's a pity no one understood me, neither you nor Mother. You just think whatever you like and do whatever you want. I was just used like a thing. I never had a life of my own.You guys assumed things and never talked to me about it or told me about it. You used me just to fulfill your needs, your pleasures, your promise. The love that happened between us is just unexpected. Shame, I fell for someone who couldn’t understand me for all those years. If I never loved you, I would have killed you right here."
Sophie POV:-
I began to sob as my whole being was burning mercilessly under those dark truths that are revealed to me. The fiery fire caused a loop of depair in my mind. The anguish filled my being. A void feeling of not even knowing who I am. The fatal wound of knowing that my own mother is not mine. That I am the daughter of the woman I hate the most. The ex-wife of my husband is actually my biological sister. In the midst of these complicated relations, I was stuck like a butterfly in a spiderweb. There’s no way out of this misery. The state of ravage is causing me to crumble apart as I felt somehow... hollow. Like my soul is giving up on me and my whole being is at the brink of destruction and I felt somewhat empty. I want to burst my emotions but they are not coming out as if they want to be swallowed and leave my body without coming out.
I looked at the intensely sad gaze of Christian that was filled with remorse and I realized that the reason for my emotions to stay calm is him. My devastation will cause him to fall apart. He has gone through enough, trick by Merlin, left behind by Aunt broken and I don't want him; neither me nor him to break apart anymore. I have to be strong and contain my emotions inside me… for now. Both of us have suffered enough. My heart is seeking a way for the denial of the truth but I know there's no escaping from it now that I have learned it, it's time to meet people who kept lying to me.
I will meet all of them one by one, I want answers from them, why they lied to me, why they kept me in the dark. It’s something I need to do before breaking apart.
"Christian.. take me to Mother.." I whispered. “You sure..?” He hesitantly asked, “Just do it, God damnit!” I yelled at him. His lips formed a thin line as he nodded slowly, not saying anything anymore.
We reached Mother's place. Her face lit up in happiness as she asked,
"Oh, Sophie, When did you come back from your honeymoon?" I gave her a cold look and rolled my eyes off, “What happened Sophie?” Mother asked. I grit my teeth, Don’t break now. I inhaled deeply and glared at her, “I know-” I took a pause, “-Everything.”
"Did Christian.. told you everything?" The fear in her voice was clear. The terror to see my reaction.
"Yes, your nephew told me everything." I hissed. My words left her speechless. Her lips began to quiver as I asked,
"Why didn't you tell me? What harmed it would cause you if you told me?" My voice was hurt, the feeling of treachery. My heart is wounded. I could barely control my emotions of dejection. My heart clenched and was crushed.
Tears pricked in her eyes as she began to say with a glint of shame in her voice,
"I don't have any courage. I thought I'd lost you. I tried! But... before I knew it.. you grew up and... I couldn't.. I'm sorry..." Mother began to cry. “But the fact remains you never told me about it!” I shouted.
“I am sorry.” She cried. “It cannot fix anything.” I snarled. Christian tried tried to calm me but I yelled at him too, “Don’t you dare to touch me!”
“And you, Thank you for hiding things you should have told me and pushing me into the abyss. If I knew, I would accept Christian the way he was; broken. I would be prepared, I would ask Roger and JUliette for once for neglecting me… only if you have told me… but you didn’t and YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE WREAK HAS HAPPENED! EVERYTHING HAPPENED BECAUSE OF YOUR COWARDICE” I broke into tears when I said that, everything seems heavy, I don’t have enough strength left in me. I couldn’t take it anymore. Mother was crying out loud, asking for forgiveness but I cannot forgive her this time for hiding things.
With a crushed heart, my steps retreated as I spared a glance at her with my teary gaze, "Don’t expect me to forgive you that easily, Amelia Skye…” I then lowered my head and wiped my tears, “But before I go, let me tell you: You are my mother and Eugene is my brother. I have no relation with Roger or his family." I stated and ignored the sound of her pleas and sobs, walking out.