Sophie POV:-
My eyes flutter opened as I sat up looking around in fret. My throat dried, as I felt like my strength was deprived of me. My breath became heavy as I put a hand over my chest and closed my eyes in dread. I began to pant as my mind was filled with consternation. I swallowed hard and exhaled in relief when I opened my eyes and saw Christian sleeping beside me. I ran my hand in my hair as I let out deep breaths to calm my anxious self and shook my head.
Christian was sleeping while leaning on the bed stamp. I felt bad for him, he stayed awake for me. All this time, not even once he showed any sign of anger or irritation by my sudden screams or fear, he always wrapped his arms around me and tried his best to soothe me. He is doing whatever he can just to eradicate the nightmares but they are somehow not leaving my life. My grip on the duvet tightened as I looked down.
I gritted my teeth, angry at myself for being so weak that I couldn’t do anything for myself. That was the only thing he couldn't erase from me. I felt my heart burning and I couldn't even save myself from that fierce fire. My heart stopped as I felt so lifeless and soon I found myself losing in those lethal apparitions. I need to overcome this- I have to. I couldn’t put my weight of frights on his shoulder, I have to put it behind me and not let it affect my condition.
I gulp hard as I pour some water for myself and drink it. I got up and freshened myself trying to let out these unwanted thoughts from my mind,.
I cooked breakfast for us and then I went to Christian to wake him up.
"Christian.." I called his name softly, running my hands in his smooth hairs but he didn't even flinch. I sat beside him and shook his shoulder slightly.
"Christian.. wake up.." I called him again. He groaned as he slowly opened his eyes. I smiled as I whispered lovingly to him, "Good Morning, Handsome." He looked at me with his eyes narrowed but then a faint smile appeared on his lips as he replied with a yawn, " Good Morning.. How are you feeling?"
"I am feeling so good to have you beside me." I said sincerely. His smile grew as he shifted and sat up.
"You fresh up, I've prepared breakfast." I said and stood up, I was about to leave but he held my wrist and pulled me to him. I squeaked when I fell as my back made contact with his chest. He secured his arms around my midsection as he nuzzled to my neck and put his chin over it. I looked at him from the corner of my eyes, smiling. His eyes were closed and he was sleepy.
"You.. okay, Christian?" I asked. He hummed on my neck as a shiver went down my spine. My face flushed and I felt so protected in his arms.
"C-Christian, l-let go." I stuttered shyly. I felt his smirk when he kissed my shoulder and replied huskily, "No.." My heart skipped a beat. He never fails to evoke strange sensations in me that made my hairs to stand on their edge in arousal. I turned my head away slyly and turned to him, wrapping my arms around his neck, “Don't you want to get up, My dear husband?” I asked, tracing my finger on the side of his face lovingly. He let out a melodious hum, “If you want to stay.”
“Well, I am hungry.” I whispered, implanting a simple kiss over his lips. “Okay..” He chuckled and let go of me and I moved away as he stood up.
I also stood up and smirked, “Wanna take a bath together?”
“Now My queen, I cannot refuse such a generous offer.” I laughed and pinched his cheeks, “I was kidding. Get ready and come down.” I whispered and left with his extreme disappointment.
He then came down with a frown over his lips and laughed looking at him, “Liar.” He mumbled. “I was joking. Maybe we can do it next time.” I winked. A came crept upon his lips and he nodded. He sat down as we began to have breakfast.
During breakfast, I asked Christian, "Christian.. Can you drop me at the park?" He stopped eating as he looked at me, surprised but also afraid.
"You.. sure?" His voice was tentative. I nodded and replied, "I have to overcome that fear."
"Then I'll go with you too."
"You don't have to."
"No. I have to be with you. By the way, why do you even want to go there?" He asked and I began to say nervously.
"You see.. a few days ago, I was thinking that.. if our kid wants to go to the park.. then what I was supposed to do? So.. I thought.. I should subdue that fear. I also thought if all my fears would disappear then probably those nightmares as well."
He looked at me for a second stunned and then nodded, understanding my point.. He held my hand and passed me a smile, "I'm with you. We will do this together." He assured me, I also smiled and nodded. “I know. You are and you were there for me.” He kissed my hands and promised, “And I’ll alway be there for you.”
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We stood outside the park. Christian held my hand and gave me a pacifying smile. He decided to take a day off. My feet froze to the ground, my hands turned cold. We walked inside, my heart began to beat feebly as I closed my eyes and stopped. Rapid breaths left my mouth. I gulped hard and we walked inside. A tear sting in my eye, a shallow breath escaped my lips. I was about to take a step back but Christian pulled me close and whispered to me, "I'm here. Don't worry. You can do this."He cheered me on. I nodded and whispered back. “I am trying.”
A sudden image of that day, a sudden feeling of those horrendous sensations rushed in me. I pushed Christian away, panting heavily as tears formed in my eyes, blurring my vision. I put my hand over my mouth. I take deep breaths so that I won't cry. I looked away, my heart thumped loudly and deluged me in sorrows and apprehensions.
I looked down, I felt like my energy was being drained from me. My lips began to quiver as ferocious shivers emerged from me. The feeling of agony is beyond my capabilities to bear. My body was slumped in those pools of dejection.
I then felt arms wrapping themselves protectively around me. I closed my eyes as a tear fell from my eye. Christian wiped it off, I inhaled his scent that gave me serenity. The feeling of having him beside me, holding me close, saving me from every harm and abhor of this world, calmed me. I swallowed the lump in my throat as I held his shirt tightly between my fingers. "No one can harm you… I am here," he said gently. His thumb brushed against my cheek. I gave him a nod and took a step back.
As we both stood there in silence. Cold breeze gave me dread but I kept it inside me. I closed my eyes, trying to lower my fears. I remained like this for a while but then a voice came from behind,
"Nostalgic, isn't it?" We both turned to see Merlin there. When did she come out of jail? By looking at her, my fears were replaced by only one emotion; hatred. I subdue my terror and glared at her.
I inhaled and hid my dread behind that piercing cold gaze of resentment. I abated my fright so that she won't have to see it because she is the last person I want to show my weakness to. I cannot break in front of her.
"The only place nostalgic for you would be jail." I said with a mocking smile. Christian was taken aback by my sudden change of emotions but I couldn't help it, my temper took the best over me and she doesn’ need to see me broken and frightened.
"By the way, Congratulations... I have heard I am becoming an Aunt."